Falling Down and Rising Up
A sermon on Isaiah 6: 1-13; 1 Corinthians 15: 1-11 & Luke 5: 1-11 by Nathan Nettleton, 7 February 2010
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A close encounter with God in Christ can make us paralysingly aware of our own sin and failure, but the experience of grace can transform that into a solidarity and gratitude that empowers us.


Most of the time we don’t expect anything too dramatic to happen in the worship service. Sure, our worship service here is a bit more intentionally dramatic than some, but we don’t usually expect anything really outrageous like people falling on their faces and screaming and thinking they are going to die, or anything like that. And if it did happen, our first reaction would probably be to think it was an attack of some kind of illness rather than an epiphany, a glimpse of the reality of God.

All three of tonight’s readings refer, either directly or indirectly, to epiphanies where the one who glimpsed the reality of God was knocked flat by it and scared out of their wits. And the first of these, Isaiah’s vision in the temple, probably does happen in the context of a worship event. The temple is filled with incense smoke and the “Holy! Holy! Holy!” hymn is being sung and suddenly Isaiah is not just seeing the priests and his fellow worshippers but the throne room of heaven. What an epiphany. The Lord is sitting on the throne, high and lifted up, and the seraphim are winging their way around him and singing, and Isaiah falls on his face and thinks he is going to die. “Woe is me. I’m done for. I’m a sinful man from a sinful race and I’ve stumbled into the very throne room of heaven.”

The scene in the reading from Luke’s gospel looks quite different, but the impact on Simon Peter is similar. It is not set in a temple or synagogue, but there is a crowd of people gathered to hear Jesus preaching, so it is not completely without liturgical context. But after the sermon, Jesus, a carpenter turned preacher, tells the fishermen how to catch fish, and somewhere in that interaction, Simon Peter catches a glimpse of who Jesus really is, of the Jesus who is seated not just in the bow of his boat, but high and lifted up in the throne room of heaven where the seraphim sing “Holy! Holy! Holy!” And when Simon Peter saw it, he fell down at Jesus’ knees, saying, “Go away from me, Lord, for I am a sinful man!”

Our other reading, from Paul’s first letter to the Corinthians, was mostly taken up with a kind of creed, a statement of faith in the crucified and risen messiah, Jesus. But at the conclusion of the creed, with its list of people who were eye witnesses of the risen Christ, Paul adds a personal reference to his own encounter with the risen Lord. “Last of all, as to one untimely born, he appeared also to me. For I am the least of the apostles, unfit to be called an apostle, because I persecuted the church of God.” Can you hear the same note in that? “Go away from me, Lord, for I am a sinful man!” Paul is knocked off his horse and the piercing light of God shines around him and he is suddenly painfully aware that he is a persecutor of God’s church, a sinner of the first degree. “Woe is me. I’m done for. I’m a sinful man from a sinful race and I’ve stumbled into the very throne room of heaven.”

As I reflected on these three stories this week, I was struck by a question. These three characters are all, at first, paralysed by their epiphanies. They catch a glimpse of the reality of God, and they are knocked flat and frozen to the spot. They think they are done for; that there is no hope for them. Confronted with all that God is, they see themselves for all that they aren’t and they abandon hope. “I’m done for, for I have stumbled into the very throne room of heaven.” And as I thought about that, I realised that I know lots of people who are similarly paralysed by a sense of their own worthlessness. I know people whose every encounter with any expression of goodness and love and generosity seems only to reinforce their condemnation of themselves, deepening their sense of their own corruption and lovelessness and selfishness. They are constantly falling down, appalled at their own baseness, and crying “Stay away from me, I am not worthy. I am not worthy.”

But there is a very big difference, isn’t there? Because despite these stories, what we remember Isaiah, Simon Peter, and Paul for is not their paralysis, but the way they were set free to become astonishing people of action and integrity and courage. Isaiah is commissioned right there in the midst of his epiphany to become the courageous prophet who proclaims the just demands of God in the face of the corrupt power brokers of the political and religious establishment. Simon Peter leaves his nets and becomes one of the leading Apostles, and the one upon whom Jesus described his church as being built. And Paul becomes the Apostle to the nations, second in importance only to Jesus in the birth and spread of the infant church.

So what makes the difference? That’s what I’ve been pondering this week. What makes the difference between the epiphany that convicts someone of their sin in a transformative way that lifts them to their feet and sets them on fire for the gospel, and despairing plunge into one’s own sinfulness that paralyses us and leaves us with our faces in the dirt? What makes the difference?

As I wrestled with that question, I began to wonder whether the way the churches have preached the gospel is perhaps part of the problem. Perhaps we have been so eager to reproduce the experience of Isaiah and Peter and Paul that we have tried to push people into that experience of confrontation with their own sin. We have proclaimed “sin, sin, sin” and “repent, repent, repent”, but in the process, we have laid a trap for our own feet. A focus on sin has led not to freedom, but to a sticky bog that drags us down and befouls us. We become horribly conscious of our corruption, but see no way clear of it.

Isaiah and Peter and Paul did not begin with a vision of sin, but with an epiphany, a vision of God. They saw not sin, but glorious righteousness and justice and love and generosity. They saw a vision not of what they were, but of what they were created to be and called to be, and the awareness of failure came from the vision of its opposite, from the vision of what they could become.

And so I wonder whether our evangelical focus on sin and repentance has left us kidding ourselves and those to whom we minister that they have been truly saved if they have become sorry for their sin. Because the terrible truth is that the world is full of people who are sorry for their sin and failure and corruption, but they are still trapped in it with their faces in the dirt saying “I am not worthy, I am not worthy” but with no sense at all of how to break free and move beyond that. Salvation comes, not in the conviction of sin, but in the encounter with grace. The true epiphany gives us a vision of of the Christ who reaches out his wounded hands to welcome and embrace us in extravagant mercy. That might make us painfully aware that we were in the crowd that bayed for his blood, but the thing that overwhelms us is grace, reckless love and acceptance. A love and acceptance that reaches out to us even before we look for it or perhaps even realise we need it.

That’s why, in our liturgy, we declare everyone’s sins forgiven; each and every person one at a time, without any regard for where each person might be on the journey to faith and acceptance of God’s mercy. For God’s mercy in Christ always goes before our response. Your sins are forgiven, whoever you are and whatever sins they are. Your sins are forgiven, but that won’t set you free unless you accept that and embrace that and rise to your feet in the experience of that. There are no sins that God’s mercy cannot reach, and no people who are excluded from God’s offer of love and grace. Did you notice how Isaiah said not just “I am a sinful man,” but also, “and I live among a sinful people”? The encounter with grace didn’t make him feel more sinful than everyone else. It made him conscious that he was just like everyone else; that all had sinned and fallen way short, and that all alike stood in need of the fiery love and mercy that he had just stumbled into.

We are a forgiven people. The stain of corruption that had blackened our souls came to light even as the seraph touched our lips with the burning coal and spoke the words of pardon to us: “your guilt has departed and your sin is blotted out.” So let us stand and affirm our faith and then approach again the table of epiphany, the table where we see the broken one, the crucified and risen one, high and lifted up and burning with the love that raises us to our feet and sets us free and opens our lips to join in the cries of “Holy! Holy! Holy!”